Working in a goldmine now.
Slowly stopping my ssris and gonna start microdosing again.
Life has been moving oh so fast and I’m just happy I can look out the window and enjoy the ride!
Love you all
Depression updateDecided to take the plunge into the world of snri”s so far they have help tremendouslyI feel like a part of me is dying tho the part of me that loves to trip must take a break and see... View MoreDepression updateDecided to take the plunge into the world of snri”s so far they have help tremendouslyI feel like a part of me is dying tho the part of me that loves to trip must take a break and see where this goesI started writing poetry again and doing small things like making my bed and walking with the dogsI have hope for the years to comeStill have many struggles but learning to cope with them one day at a time I love you all
How do you all deal with depression?!
This is my longest poems,its one of the deepest and probably the most difficult to write. Was also the last thing i wrote and finnished."Forgive me for what ive become"Forgive me for what ive become,U... View MoreThis is my longest poems,its one of the deepest and probably the most difficult to write. Was also the last thing i wrote and finnished."Forgive me for what ive become"Forgive me for what ive become,Understand where ive been,And what ive done,Always for survival never for fun,Ive lost the battle but the war was won,Gained scars and earned wisdom,Speaking my mind so listen,If you cant bare my burden,Then you'll never see that my heart is hurting,Its way past the point of ever working,And thats why with everybitch,I'm either fucking or flirting,Im never finding love but always searching,And thats my curse for certain,Yous only see the little smurffle,But its tyler behind the curtains,Morally swerving changing lanes,Struggling to stay fully sane,On my sould this pain forever remains,I speak the things i have to say,Hope you here me muttering today,"Forgive me for what Ive become,Understand where ive been,And what ive done,Know it was survival,Never for fun,"Sometimes when I Close my eyes,I visualize all my hopes and aspirations,Materialize as the doubt slowly wither and die,All cause i picked up a pen and decided to give poetry a try,That lead me to coping poeticly a my brains fried,Im way to high, my school work just flys on by,But to my surprise,Theirstoo many deceitful lies,Coupled with hidden ties,To try and shift through,with these tired eyes,And im trouble to find,A reason to live and survive,Inside it feels lke i wanna die,So my soul looks at my heart and wonders why,Afrer every stroke and every stride,We struggle to thrive,Its im being choked,This isnt a joke,Suffocated my hope,From all this lung drug smoke,I remember that one long sniff,Hydro overdose laying comatose,Scard half to death cause that day i came close,But since then im life betteren,Became a life change veteran,All recorded in this selfless rhetoric,Again the words ive said it,"Forgive for what ive become,Fnderstand where ive been,And what ive done,Always for survival never for fun,I wnt from dealing drugs,To runnng guns but,Now im living my life on the run,From the man i once was,To the one im ment to become,I struggle to give, myself for forgiveness,for the shit that I've done,And even tho im still young,Im righting the wrongs i can,befor my day of judgement comes,I god forces me to pay for all these sins as one,And The day as come, where i pray for a warning even one,But,Then when imgone to talk to god,I gotta thank him for the path im on,And even though its honestly hard as fuck,I feel like i made it ere cause of shear luck,I never pictured them pearly gates,Cause of the perfect people,That decided to discriminate,And fill this innocent heart, with bigotry and hate,Call fate or call faith,I knew i can be saved,It was that internal self hate,That made me change my ways,I was sick of waking up in a haze,Sniffing in the quake of last nights craze,It perpelled my many mental afflictions,That are detrimental to my attention,Not to mention the othwr challenges not yet presented,So now im standing up to challenge the present,With this i must be persistent,Assist it into becoming a main characteristic,Fuck man i gotta stick with it,God i know you see my intentions,You kow their pure of heart im not pretending,Remember me and save me a spot in heaven,Protect me and make sure im safe intill then
Mushrooms that help with backpain? Is there any can fungal wonders for this type of thing
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