Our drill instructor instructed us on the proper wearing of our uniform as he walked down the line of bodies that stood erect one after another. Across from me stood a man whose face said his bladder was about to explode. He displayed real pain, and then a slight discomfort, fear, joy, and then again fear. A fine line of urine formed a larger and larger puddle from his leg. We stood there in awe of moving, not daring to make a sound. I was terrified. I had left my home, my family, a higher educa...

It was a slightly raning day, cold but warn in my heart. I just had picked up Vine from the Seattle airport and had enjoyed the ride with him back to my place. It has been a few months since we had last seen each other in person but we almost talk daily and my worries were that we would have nothing to talk about in person, which was seemingly untrue after our drive. The weekend was packed full of adventures, some virtual reality mixed in with a session of shrooms which had been long overdue ...

I had arrived in Boise Idaho to visit my friend Vine again. It had been some time since our last visit and Vine was prepared to have another trip exploring this time some of our favorite psychedelics, Psilocybe cubensis. Vine has spent a good portion of the last few years learning all he could about growing these mind-opening treats. He managed to produce enough to last us our lifetimes but in a fit of psychedelic influence ( the mushrooms told him to clean your room and get your life togethe...

The plane landed, the hum of the engine turned down. People got out of their seats and then the captain gave the okay to unbuckle. It's always was backwards like that. People acting first, thinking of safety after, not hearing the warning. I too have always been that way as I reached into Pandora’s Box so long ago it felt like a dream. I had come so far from my past, who I was no matter made sense to me as I could never remember that self fully, and I now understand that I am always changing and...

It was too much, too strong. What the hell did Vine do to me? I couldn't stop shaking! I closed my eyes and I was gone, transported into a world of stereoscopic fractals. The anger was building up; I could see it, red in my mind and ready to pounce on me like a starving lion. I wasn't ready for this. It had been about six months since Vines and I camping trip and we were both ready to try again. We were at his place as we decided to stay inside after the trouble in the wilderness with the ten...

Vine and I were hanging out in his kitchen. We were both excited. I was excited to see if I could get over this fear produced from my last experience. We watched the stove boil the sloppy mix that we had both taken together a year ago. I was a changed person since the last time. I had also learned a lot, I wasn't stressed over things as much, and I looked at life in a slightly different light. I still had my problems though and was ready to face my demons once again. We filtered the substance...

I lay on my bed home alone, scared about the taste I was about to endure as well as that feeling of the onset of chemicals changing my perception. It's a feeling of vibrating unconscionably in my mind, but in reality not moving at all. It's the feeling of loosing myself and not knowing where I was going next. I drink the liquid. It tastes horrible, worst than I could remember if that was even possible. I get scared, because I'm alone, I get sick. I decided that I wasn't ready to do this by my...

My first Ayahuasca experience was maybe just over 10 years ago. I was naive and unsure of myself and had a lot to learn since then. I wrote down the experience in a chapter of an unfinished story that I wrote about that time in my life which I have only shared with a few poor souls who have taken the time to read it with my almost forceful (is it good) questioning. It tells the story better than I can write it up from memory and so I hope that sharing it will bring light to others a little of wh...