I though I am going somewhere with my live, bought a house, proposed to my gf year ago. Now it seems we will be splitting and selling house that we moved in and renovated just 5 months ago. 10 year re... View MoreI though I am going somewhere with my live, bought a house, proposed to my gf year ago. Now it seems we will be splitting and selling house that we moved in and renovated just 5 months ago. 10 year relationship goes down in flames like it didnt even matter.I hate to just get back to having nothing, I hate to be alone again, but at same time I will not allow anybody to dictate what person should I be, what feallings should I have and what should I do or do not. Most of all I am scared of being all alone.33yo grown man and being fragile like a boy, getting scared of being lonely, being scared of failing at live. Changes are hard, letting go is even harder.I only hope there is someone waiting for me at the end of this road that would apreciate me for a person that I am. Not expecting things from me. Not judging and punishing me for my mistakes.So many thoughts in my head right now.
I'm very sorry if I gave you this impression. Life isn't a competition and I really see the world, including you, as an extension of myself. By definition, I can't be any better than myself.
You're right about many things you've said about me. I've been sharing my point of view based on my own expe... View MoreI'm very sorry if I gave you this impression. Life isn't a competition and I really see the world, including you, as an extension of myself. By definition, I can't be any better than myself.
You're right about many things you've said about me. I've been sharing my point of view based on my own experiences since when I joined here.
I hope you can accept my apologies.
Just to conclude, I've been molested myself in my childhood. But I don't bring any sorrow about it in my heart because I could see the reason behind it and forgive the ones involved.
Now working on forgiving myself.
I separated from my fiance i was with for 10 years, and a year ago. It was the mist devastating experience ive had yet. And ive been through a few other lifechanging events.
Im still recovering, i still cry atleast every other day. Just stay busy. Hopefully you didnt lose a bestfriend at the same t... View MoreI separated from my fiance i was with for 10 years, and a year ago. It was the mist devastating experience ive had yet. And ive been through a few other lifechanging events.
Im still recovering, i still cry atleast every other day. Just stay busy. Hopefully you didnt lose a bestfriend at the same time. Having someone to talk to is always helpful. Get away from your old lifestyle. Ive changed alot since my separation. Realized i still had alot to work on with myself.
Now i live life knowing that one day im going to prove to her that she made the biggest mistake of her life.
Chin up. And live your best life.
I went through a very similar situation, and split when I was 33. I had invested my whole life into building a lifetime with her. It crushed me, but Im a better, and happier man today. Im not gonna lie it sucked a lot and it wasnt easy, but it will get better faster than you think is possible. You ... View MoreI went through a very similar situation, and split when I was 33. I had invested my whole life into building a lifetime with her. It crushed me, but Im a better, and happier man today. Im not gonna lie it sucked a lot and it wasnt easy, but it will get better faster than you think is possible. You will find that perfect person who is looking for their perfect person when the time comes, but for now use this time to get to know yourself a little better, and learn to be comfortable by yourself. Good luck brother