MonkeyJack

Went for a journey the other night layin in bed and as I left thru time I usually go thru these connections like how its explained on the movie Avatar how every single thing on earth is connected thru these connections of light sorta like fiberoptic cable. As I lay there I could feel the weight of life pushing me down into the bed then I'd woosh back to my trip kinda back and forth and I remember thinking I wish I could just leave "me" leave this conscience and broken soul and get out of my fked up head. As a parent my worst nightmare came 3 years ago and since then I've wanted to leave this "world" many many times. If you have children I'm sure you know what I mean. Anyway during my trip I was off floating around I think I was looking for my son I was getting saddened and so frustrated that I couldnt find him I stopped and said ok fk it I'm done thats it I'm ready I have to leave "me" and right then I broke out of my head I left out thru my eyes and all I was was this pure white glowing wisps of smoke but this only lasted a split second and was pulled back in. I snapped back to reality and was wtf was that so thought I'd ask if anyone else has tried to leave "them". Mush Love Everyone :v: Peace