Is it time to return? May 2020 - 6yrs laterAround 6yrs ago over a period of a year I delved into the world of the source. My last experience was both enlightening and disturbing and I’ve only had a fe... View MoreIs it time to return? May 2020 - 6yrs laterAround 6yrs ago over a period of a year I delved into the world of the source. My last experience was both enlightening and disturbing and I’ve only had a few miniscule doses around a year ago.Wring this story will hopefully help me overcome my fear and allow me to travel soon with confidence… Gulp.I tip toed into getting used to it at around 0.2-0.4mg a hit at first on my own, then with a girl who I was seeing at the time and then a few more times on my own. In short it is/was the most profound magical enlightening and scary moments of my life. I have dabbled in party drugs including LSD a little, but DMT taught me all other substances are mere milky buttons compared to riding the snake.It is (or so it seems), albeit impossible to truly recollect and explain these inter-dimensional voyages but I’m going to try to throw down some memories…I’m in an annexe I lived in, it’s a rural area, I’m in bed, cosy, its warm, dark but not pitch black, there’s a candle light. I am playing some “3 daft monkeys” which is really positive harmonious fun folk music… a real circus feel to it.I light a pipe of around 0.4mg mixed with sage, I avoid allowing the flame to touch and just allow the ember in the sage to ignite the deeper crystals…Eyes closed and off….I’m a floating consciousness in a world of no up/down/left or right, the album sleeve of the 3DM sleeve must have inspired me as the colour scheme is similar there is a 4D kaleidoscope of colours in 360 degrees but it feels like a merry go round – I feel welcomed and hugged by the energy. I am trying my hardest to properly clear my mind into a meditative state which is something I’ve always struggled with my mind is constantly busy. I notice if I put more pressure into closing my eyelids or move physically or mentally…. As my mind traverses the neurons the colours of the matrix adjust in rhythm… I can control to a degree? I also manage to super-loop the music in my head actually hearing what my mind wanted to hear still all in rhythm – It’s difficult to explain but I actually heard the tune loop in all sorts of odd ways then play out and end – my experience therefore must have been skipping back and forth through time? Very confusing and truly magical experience… I’m inspired to return several more times to similar experiences.In addition, I can travel up tunnels of colour in any direction from this place, travelling a million miles and know where at the same time (Jamiroquai “travelling without moving” seems it could have been based on this?After some studying, I realised I’m only knocking on the door! The next few I’m feeling that the next level where you meet someone, learn something is just over my shoulder… but I can’t look over it no matter how hard I try… its like a carrot and a donkey.I either had a peek vision of jester/joker kind of guy seeming like a teasing entertainer calling me in, but not letting me in (Or was I stopping myself???)A week later I felt on top of the world – I remember feeling like a higher part of consciousness have flicked through my mind like files in a filing cabinet checking all my beliefs, my approximation of the world – the odd file is pulled with a voice saying – do you “really” think this?A subconscious “cleaning out the closet” of dumb ideas without even knowing the specifics like software like CCleaner had been run. I left a nightmare partner thanks to guidance from the realms.The triple dip mind explosion….Until this time my max was 2 small hits This time I was in a drowsy state and a bit depressed state as a friend had recently passed. I was keen to escape for a warm hug and hopefully pass though a new doorway… I’m alone at night in bed… I experience a small 1st trip then 30sec later 2nd 30sec later 3rd Fast forward 3rd hit I went to the sun! I was/am part of the sun… All of consciousness was there it felt like the universal consciousness of everyone… just white absolute ecstasy…. I remember nothing else…When I came round. I knew what I had done, I got out of bed and wandered my studio apartment gathering my thoughts… But they were missing…. Hang on???? WTF??? Who am I? Am I supposed to be at work soon? Is it night or day…? OH??? What do I even do again? This is all very confusing.I went to look at my PC monitor and some awful music was playing I thought id try to work out how to put something soothing on? That’s good I know this place, this computer… some things are a] familiar…. But when I look at the screen it is all weird…. I can only explain as “8bit Mario game pixelated style” It felt fake and I was repulsed by the screen. I somehow silenced the scene shortly after and went to the window… confused… then to the mirror. confused but my memory is coming back.I’m cold, feel comedown like and I make tea and have a nap… when I wake, I’m fine I know who I am and feel refreshed.I feel 200% a few days later but don’t remember any real detail. Did I go though another door or?? As amazing as the feeling of the experience was I only “see” white which doesn’t teach me much… which I guess is what im yearning for? This forgetting element scared me – I kept clear for 5yrs had a tiny dabble a year ago but I didn’t give it the attention it deserves.TODAY – I want to start travelling in again… I joined this website to help learn about the stages etc Sidenote: So far…. I’ve always clung to music for the journey – psycadelic electronica and jiggery pokery folk – I find it amazing I can hear the music at a much higher quality on the trip than it really sounds in real life – how is this even possible. I note that if a tune I’m not gelling with comes on, perhaps lacking depth – I’m immediately come down by it, it sombres and I speed to the end of the trip.A few questions if any well-travelled fellows could help?1- Does playing music restrict the experience by allowing you to cling to some reality or its restrictions via “fixing” the harmony/setting?2- Does thinking of a certain thing/question help or hinder? As if I think “clear your mind” then oddly that phrases become the thought… Its SOOO hard to let go any advice?3- Tried Solfeggio frequencies anyone?4- Does micro-dosing help to train you to get used to the transition?5- I am little scared but that’s OK right?6- I assume it lasts eternity at room temperature? Hope so?Any comments or pointers what so ever appreciated!Here is my latest psychedelic dub set download link - https://drive.google.com/open?id=1F5kkjtShEjBLlWbrLMx8ZhQiPNLgekwcHere is my DJ Page - https://soundcloud.com/myky-p
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