Time

A meditation in TimeGoing Deeper, deeper, deeper ... Aug 2017, To the passer-byers, it simply appeared to be 2 middle aged people lying in a Field on their backs during a clear warm summer day. However, this moment in time, was different, at least for the male partner. For he noticed the beauty of the slowly passing clouds, the fresh air, the overhanging branches from a nearby tree. Time seemed frozen or moving very very slowly. Also, he was deep in thoughts about his female partner, some emotion had stirred in him, yet, he felt content just lying there close to her, and briefly had a thought this would never end. Was there a way for it to last forever, this moment in time. There was confusion in his mind, very deep, something was different, something was NEW, yet unfamiliar, the description was not possible since he had never experienced it before, no one had taught him this, or prepared him for this.It was not a bad feeling, just Alien. To help understand the situation, we must go further back, far back into this man's past. Life grants everyone unique experiences, things like a family unit, siblings, a caring mother and father, even pets with their unconditional love shape a person, thru out childhood, and even other people, maybe coaches, teachers, neighbors, and friends also provide rolls in a personal path. These experiences add layers and shape a person. Remove any of these opportunities, and the person in question is left with fewer layers and finds themselves building and creating them. This man carried this Feeling for months, keeping it secret, mainly because he did not know what it was, and also from the fear, there may be something wrong with him, Denying the expression of the emotion and burying it was causing a Delima in the mans life, even affecting his none intimate relationships with others, he found it easier to request, and demand loving attention, then to care for and love others, for this hole was easier filled by others, then loving himself, and then sharing his love.It took a breakup and end to the relationships between them, for this man to finally realize what had happened.For he did not fair well, this feeling he had been carrying for a while, was love for her, true love, he was capable of really loving, and now knew its feeling. This is the Gift, and feeling happy that it happened, is love. Coming back, Coming back...Awake.