Ketamine

I had a surgery last week. I got to chat with the anesthesiologist while the operating table before he administred general anesthesia. He listed many of the contents in it for me, and I said, "Nothing dissociative?" He said, "You want ketamine?" I nodded. He asked, "Have you been sad?" I nodded and said I'm good to go for ketamine, so he told his assistant to add 25 mg Ketamine to my general anesthesia cocktail.  I don't remember tripping. I don't think I would have at such a low dose. My surgeon said I had a nightmare or an episode when waking up - I started fighting them and 6 people had to hold me down. They injected ultrafast profanol and it worked for 10 seconds, but I woke up and started fighting again so they held me down again and then administred intravenous Ativan. Apparentely that did the trick, but I got some bruising as a result. I scared them in the operating room, lol. My surgeon asked if I remember anything about it. I didn't. He wasn't aware of the ketamine added to the mix. I was under general anesthesia once before (no ketamine) and I apparentely fought during the procedure (resistant to a scope, according to the doctor back then). I don't know if my reaction after this latest surgery was from profanol, general anesthesia, or ketamine... But after the surgery, I was in high spirits and I have been pretty positive for the past week since. One day, when I can afford it, I'd like to go to a ketamine clinic. Now, I'm using microdoses of mushrooms to try to keep the ketamine going. 

I asked for Ketamine because a friend who gave birth (c-section) said she got it and she tripped - in a place with no judgement, no harm. She felt her depression was partly lifted.