Harvest/dry day

So for the past couple days I promised myself I wouldn't dose and I meant it.. I didn't wanna dose until I had nice stash of fruit that would make trip just by looking at it.. it didn't really have to be that pretty but no more quick dry fruits.. it would no longer be acceptable in my book am almost a real OG.. don't wanna brag but I been growing for over a year.. so I check on my tub and decide to give my fruits a squeeze... after what feels like weeks they were ready to be zip locked.. so I load them up and thought about how tempting they have been to taste dry.. well maybe if eat few tiniest ones it wouldn't be a dose technically.. so I eat about 3 or 4 tiniest ones. might of been 5 haha.. it started off as feeling like a tease but I figure after sometime it might kick in a little better.. about 30mins it started getting more intense I thought damn I shouldn't of ate them I probably feel wierd because I didn't want to eat them.. 20mins later I was reading a post and the anxiety was so strong I was like fk I don't read this... put my phone down.. and started thinking damn that's what I get it'll be over soon I didn't eat that much.. Now the crazy part is I know I didn't roll over and take nap.. but I was trippin hard all I could think was don't freak out that shid would be so embarrassing.. but it was wierd It was like I should of known what eating fruits would do.. I was looking at myself thinking you did now.. It got more intense the room was starting to spin and then started to spin with flashing lights like ufo and voices were starting to speak and bam it was gone and wasn't tripping so hard anymore.. but that was intense ::..::....