Trip Reports
on October 17, 2020
I've been dealing with major anger issues, more or less 2-3 years now since a major impact to my prefrontal cortex. In an effort to repair or fix some of the brain damage that occured :I've been experimenting with entheogens. (neuroplasticity and all that jazz )
I recently dropped a dose of liquid LSD more or less a week ago: it was effective and i found myself fighting my ego once again. The multiple aspects of love and rage that i bottled up was gradually released. I certainly gave my friends a hard time : seeing a person fight themselves can be difficult as hell.
several days later: i dropped two more hits of LSD with my friends. I felt all the emotional baggage that i was carrying become 'one' with me. It was no longer "baggage" and it became an aspect of my ego. I brought back a girl with me home soon thereafter (recently ended a rough breakup.. so i needed to get back in the saddle for an ego boost) : deep down inside i had this feeling this new girl was simply using me for sex or drugs: maybe both.
To test my objectivity and spiritual resilience.. i openly dosed a quarter point of DMT in front of this girl i scarcely trusted: I realized what was happening, i was being used: and the DMT screamed it loudly into my psyche.
I've been working on myself since this incident: I plan to keep on moving forward.. The only other option is to... "not".
Love and peace, I'm praying for a bountiful tomorrow.
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Thanks for the revealing share alphadraconiz! I enjoyed reading, particularly the part about emotional baggage becoming one with you, no longer a burden but now just part of what makes you unique! I have to say, I as well feel lighter after reading your report. Thank you. I have always been focused... View More