Deemer the Redeemer

I set out to have an experience similar to one I've had before and found my center instead. How this substance that our bodies already has an intimate relationship with quickly became a 4 hour journey. I've found that in the right position and intent and proper shamanic drum beat you can and have to allow the mind to give up old walls and eternalize old trauma and feel it to your core. I moved and chanted and hummed to the vibration and had a conversation with the music. I saw geometric trails and stars and kept my eyes open most of the time and when closed I saw a beautifully dark skinned hindu goddess and felt her move across and through me and another three times and another 30-45 minutes of the same and then the last three with probably 2 hours of gut tenching grateful tears soaked eyes and face still swaying and in yoga pose it seemed as if everytime the chanting would start my trip would change to another realm and then I watched the room turn very Aztecan like and colors totally went left brain right brain I've just left this dimension( Not my pose and hand form grateful and for just a second please look don't hurt me or mercy please intention on my being it stayed that way for about 2-3 minutes.) I felt and acknowledged a single thought that this was one of many world's to not waste my time with regret but share your hope and help others and always stay toiled. Pain is truly an illusion and gods love and spiritual journey is eternal. I finally came off the afterglow of it all renewed and a little shellshocked what just transpired and have not stopped searching since and able to do a little work too. Idk time to live right with self and others before God and quit all the regret and hate and be that better person realization I'm gonna fuck up and that's where the growth and humility is being a human in its divinity. Thanks for letting me share.