Wax and Dmt

So to start out my husband hands me a dab tool with just wax so we do a nightly dab, then a few minutes later he sets me up another dab on the tool but this time he adds dmt because he knows i like it lol. He hands it to me and says are you ready i said is that dmt he said yes and I said okay, he heated the rig and i took my hit, so we have my favorite show Rizzoli and isle and we have white light on so i feel everything coming up my body from my toes to my stomach, to my throat,  then my tongue started to tingle and I felt like I was going to throw up, I tried to open my eyes and everything looked like a cartoon with color pop art like everything had color shadows but they was in front of the TV instead of on the screen, then everything was so bright so I told my husband everything sounded so far away and was so bright so my husband switched the TV to tool and our lights went to purple, then i felt like my arms and legs felt like they should not exist and was so heavy like I dont even know how I was able to move them at all, now everytime I move in the slightest everything started spinning so I stay as still as I can but still comfortable, then i see something walking towards me not sure what it was but it had a beautiful enery to it and it keep getting bigger, then everything went kinda dark and I see what appears to be a clown spinning around and I am terrified of clowns but in this very moment I knew that my fears are irrational and clowns especially this one can't hurt me, i am still scared of them but I feel like dmt is telling me to face my fears but I dont think I am ready to face my fear of clowns i feel like it will make me more scared of clowns.