Buckle up buckaroo!!

My ceremonial brother and I set yesterday evening as the date for our session. The plan was 4 grams of rue tea each. Total 8 grams syrian rue seeds were ground up with a mortar and pestle boiled for 30 minutes on a low simmer with 1 cup water and 3 tablespoons of lemon juice. Strained and filtered then repeated with another cup of water and 2 tablespoons of lemon juice. Reduced the combined boils down to 100ml. 50ml each. We prepared 100mg of white DMT crystal and 100mg of Jim jam in 2 tablespoons of lemon juice each. At 9pm we drank the rue tea. We were setup down in my field under the teepee poles, in a teepee with the sky as our canvas. We sat quietly and waited for 45 minutes, we could really feel the rue. So warm and relaxing. We shot down our 200mg doses and went back to our places by the fire and got comfortable in quite meditation. I started a playlist of icaros that was about 4 hours long. It was 9:45 and would be the last time I looked at the clock for the rest of the trip. The medicine came on fast and furious. We had done a similar ceremony last month together with the same amount of rue and 150mg white DMT in lemon juice. This was coming on harder and faster than any other pharmahuasca, ayahuasca or anahuasca I have ever experienced. I have not purged in about the last 20 ceremonies that I have done but on the last one I felt something that needed to be purged but it just wouldn't come. My intention this time was to purge what was revealed to me in my last experience. Well the medicine was gracious enough to help me fulfill my intention. It could not have been more than 30 minutes since drinking the dose I could feel the purge building and certain icaros would make it intensify. I was deep in the medicine. Reality was gone. A voice inside said bucket. I rolled to my side and grabbed the bucket. No sooner than I had it to my face the purge began. The purge was violent, cramping, choking. Vomit flooding my throat and sinuses. The most vile tasting and very reminiscent of ayahuasca purge. The purge went on for what had to be an hour. I once again got comfortable and cleaned the snot and vomit from my face, washed out my mouth with water. I settled back deep into the medicine inside my sleeping bag on my mat the medicine made my body move almost constantly. Another icaro came on that brought on another purge. Not as violent as the first, it felt like a cleanup as when it was building with the beginning of the icaros I could feel almost like a suction inside me. After this purge my nausea subsided. I layed back down on my mat and closed my eyes. I let the medicine take me. It was a beautiful ride. Lessons upon lessons to unpack and integrate. I could feel I'm now past the peak, things are getting a lot more coherent and introspective. During this period my ceremonial brother and I started talking about life, love, the devine, ancestors. The icaros are still playing, we still have our eyes closed and the medicine is still fairly strong. My brother checks the time. It's 1:20am. My vision is coming back now, I can fully see and appreciate the sky, the stars, the mist that's formed in the field. I'm in sheer awe of the beauty of the perfect moment. Tears of joy and gratitude well up and I begin to cry. So grateful for all of the amazing moments, for all the terrible moments, for all the day to day. Message flood in, we are only here for a moment, be your best, live a good life. I'm still feeling the medicine. With my eyes closed I'm still getting mild visuals, they are visions of my journey slowed down and blown up to reveal details. I layed like this in my sleeping bag on my mat and drifted off to the most comfortable and peaceful sleep I've had in a long time. We woke up at 6:30am feeling refreshed and still in awe of how deep the medicine took us. Grateful to the medicine for always giving us what is needed. I'm looking forward to my next session but there is a lot to unpack from this experience before that happens. I would recommend this recipe for anyone who wants to go deep. I would not recommend this recipe to anyone who is not experienced with ayahuasca as it was very strong. The only thing I would do differently next time is to dilute the DMT and lemon juice with a bit of water before dose to raise the PH a bit. Stay safe whatever you do.