Silo Trip Two

After being invited out to the missile silo by K for a weekend of enthegenic experimentation, I took some MDMA and a large a dose of what T called ALD-52. After dancing for what seemed like an eternity in the candlelight, and watching scenes from the beginnings of civilization play out on the concrete walls as the flames bounced to the beat of the music, the images finally faded away and I thought, maybe i should go outside and get some fresh air. K and T had gone to their room to crash and I hadn't been outside since I got to the missile silo and had no idea what time it was ( it was 20 years ago before I personally had a cell phone lol, so long ago!) so i was surprised to see it was afternoon. I had been there for about 14 hours and had been tripping since about 15 minutes after arriving. The cars and the driveway looked normal so I was convinced I was now sober. i walked up the incllined driveway to the pasture above. They had a 20-30 large domesticated rabbits running around free within the gated property. At first I thought they were so cute, but then i noticed how heavily they were breathing, and their colors were changing back and forth from their normal color to shimmery silver and every once in a while one's eyes would turn red. And the looks they were giving me. I could feel their terror at me being there and feeling all their emotions at once was overpowering. I couldn't move for a while though and we all just pulsated together. Finally I backed away from them and headed over to the shed. Lupe, a master Mexican tileworker T had had smuggled over the border to hand tile both his bathrooms was hanging out by the garden. He spoke Mayan and Spanish only. I had picked up a little Spansih in the two semesters i took at college but not much. But that day it was like it was my first language. He and I talked back and forth in Spanish for quite a while.Then I realized I wasn't wearing a shirt so i excused myself and went back into the silo to get one lol. After i took shower in the giant bathroom with a 20 person tub, tiled fllor to ceiling by Lupe, i got clean clothes on and thought, ok, i've finally come down. i hadn't eaten so they decided to take my to town for sushi. It was my first time having sushi so they ordered for me. When my plate came, the fish was all moving around on my plate (at least that's how i saw it. lol) I didn't want to be rude though but i felt like i was eating live fish. so maybe not sober yet. we went back to missile base and i lay down in the cold dark missile bay under a down comforter. i melted into it and lost where it ended and i began. it was then i was told all the answers to all the questions.for all time by the voice inside my mind. she was kind like a mother (not mine who had recently rejected me for coming out as bi-sexual and being engaged to a woman) and she knew about how I had been sexually asaulted in college and comforted me and explained how from now on everything in the universe would unfold exactly as it should. As i drifted off to sleep, she sang me sweet songs and kissed the happy tears running down my cheeks. She reminded me of Glenda the Good Witch.

When I woke back up I was in awe of my experience and of these people who had randomly come into my life and introduced this to me. It felt like this experience was the most important of my life. it felt like i would never be the same. i was right. 

to be continued...