3-HO-PCP + 5F-MDMB-PICA

I already had several lines of 3-HO-PCP when Barong said I should roll a joint with our new noid, 5F-MDMB-PICA. Since the tobacco with the solution was not yet dry, I simply took some powder, which turned out to be a mistake. One hit of this joint and I was gone. The result was a two-hour blackout, according to Barong. As I stared into the empty air with my eyes and mouth open, I was somewhere else. I moved through the unknown room and had haunting thoughts, which I can’t remember. Towards the end of the trip my memory came back.  Barong was already worried about me. He kept trying to wake me up from this state, initially without success. Then I started to hear his voice again. The curtain fell. I saw Barong kneeling on the floor in front of me, begging me to give an answer. He wanted to know if I'm fine. I could only stammer a soft “yes” before the unknown sucked me in again.  Visually, I was completely somewhere else again. The sheer complexity intimidated me. I was floating in a large room, in front of me a huge structure that can best be visualized as a screen. It consisted of an infinite number of small pixels, which formed an incomprehensibly complex pattern. The pattern reminded me of a face and I was convinced that this structure has a personality and incredibly high intelligence. I can only remember one really memorable thought: "Oh my god, if we get there when we die, I will never find my way around. It is far too complicated." Then a pixel sucked me in and showed me a situation from my past that seemed irrelevant at that time. I experienced this moment as if it was happening right now and felt the emotion. Suddenly I realized how important this moment is. It also contributed to the overall picture of myself.  Since Barong tried to speak to me again and again I switched between reality and "there" several times. When the effect of the substance slowly wore off, I finally had time to think about what had happened. I became infinitely happy. Happy to have such an experience, my very personal trip. A moment that would only belong to me forever. I felt joy and gratitude for every aspect of my life. I laughed like I had never laughed before when I understood that there are neither positive nor negative. Giving a situation a valence leads to nothing, because the complexity of the impact on the future is impossible for our monkey brain to grasp.