My First DMT Trip/The Loop

Hello all, this is about my first experience with DMT. My friend RickSanchez who is also a member here, is who introduced me to psychedelics altogether. He had acquired some from a friend a couple of weeks before and let me know. I wasnt able to get up with him, and he did some experimenting to get some knowledge bc he had never tried it either. A week or so later he said his friend hooked him up with some more and to come over, and I said I was on my way. I got there around 6pm and it was his daughters birthday party. The party commenced for the next 2 or 3 hours, and I was on pins and needles excited the entire time. I had no idea what to expect and was feeling super nervous all night, and no amount of dabs was changing that. Finally around 9:00pm he showed me down to his man cave. This was my first time being down there, and it was FREEZING!! His family called for him, he excused himself for a few minutes. I used this time to walk around the space and try to get acquainted and somewhat familiar with it. I would be sitting on a loveseat with a coffee table in front of me, and a couch to my right at a right angle. On the other wall was a dark green 1970s style cushy chair and foot stool that matched (more on this BASTARD later). It had a funky pattern on it with no DMT involved. I hear him thump thumping down the stairs. Its go time.Getting Ready He brought me a blanket to put over my lap and cover up with bc I was shaking trembling from the cold and nervousness. I was smoking out of a dab rig and banger, heated with a torch. Rick was going to do all of the heating and loading for me, all I had to do was hit it. We didnt have a MG scale, and he wasnt able to breakthrough in his experiments, so we were gonna wing it. First Hit Rick heated the banger, loaded a pile of DMT on a folded piece of paper while it was cooling, I placed my lips to the rig, he dumped the DMT, there was a sizzle and a puff of smoke went through the rig into my lungs, and I held it.....and held it......and held it......and blew nothing. Rick shook his head and started heating the banger again. A reddish orange tint came over the room. I told Rick this and he replied "Well you got something." Second Hit He loads the paper with a bit more while the banger is cooling. I feel my legs start getting a different tremor every few seconds than normal cold chills. I asked Rick if he had ever had that "Nope, but Ive only got to try a few times." I placed my lips on the rig, he dumped the DMT, a sizzle, a puff of smoke drifts out of the banger before I was pulling, but then the chamber fills with white smoke, I hold it.....and hold it....a buzzing starts building like an insect in my ear......hold it.....the red in my vision deepens....hold it..... everything in my field of vision begins to pulse rapidly......hold it......the pattern on the 70s chair starts swimming convulsing........releeaaaase.......but Im still here. Third Hit Rick shakes his head and starts loading more onto the paper. I told him that this next hit might be the last one either way, and that Im feeling really weird. He told me he def understood and loaded even more. At this point I saw the downside to an oil rig and banger when using a torch. An e-nail wouldnt have the same issue. The apprehension and anxiety while waiting for the next hit can get intense. Lips to rig, dumps, a HUGE sizzle, thick white smoke fills the bong and I inhale deep.....and its still solid white......keep inhaling.....still white....I nod to Rick and say "Mmhmmm" and keep inhaling....I finally clear the bong and sit back, put my chin on my chest, close my eyes, and hold it....... The Tunnel A tunnel of geometric patterns fill my vision. It doesnt feel like Im moving forward, just that the patterns are circling my vision. Hold it....... I start racing forward through the tunnel, patterns of reds and blues are spinning and flying past. Hold it...... I start noticing my lungs getting tight, and a voice in my head that sounds like my own says "Just hold it. Your body will breath when it needs to." So I Hold It....... I start fighting to hold my breath, so I open my eyes and the tunnel is still there, but I can see my arms laying along each side of the tunnel since they were laying forearms up on my legs. I feel a little air escape, so I double down and strain to Hold it!!!!!!!! My arms melt into the pattern and I feel another breath escape so I TRIPLE DOWN and HOLD IT!!!!!! My arms completely melt into the pattern and I sense a face toward my left and slightly up. A twinkle appears im the pattern, like a womans face, and I hear in a very tinkling, fairy, Tinker Bell type voice say "Hello"....... I had done a lot of reading on DMT and studying trip reports before this. When I heard the hello, I took that as a welcome into Hyperspace. I was EXPECTING to just GO OUT and not be able to control it. In hindsight all I had to do was relax and keep my eyes closed. When I exhaled and didnt "Go out", I opened my eyes and said..... "Fuck!!" The Loop "Fuck!!" I look at the 70s chair and it is spiraling, swimming, zigzagging. I look at Rick and he says "I fn told you man" and starts grabbing at the DMT and rig. My world, my life, my universe, my existence starts expanding out to encompass my state, my country, the world, the galaxy, the universe, INFINITY..... I get scared and look at the 70s chair spiraling, swimming, zigzagging. I say "Fuck!!".....look at Rick....."I fn told you man" and starts grabbing for the DMT and rig. "Fuck!!" I look at the 70s chair and it is spiraling, swimming, zigzagging. I look at Rick and he says "I fn told you man" and starts grabbing at the DMT and rig. My world, my life, my universe, my existence starts expanding out to encompass my state, my country, the world, the galaxy, the universe, INFINITY..... I get scared and look at the 70s chair spiraling, swimming, zigzagging. I say "Fuck!!".....look at Rick....."I fn told you man" and starts grabbing for the DMT and rig. "Fuck!!" I look at the 70s chair and it is spiraling, swimming, zigzagging. I look at Rick and he says "I fn told you man" and starts grabbing at the DMT and rig. My world, my life, my universe, my existence starts expanding out to encompass my state, my country, the world, the galaxy, the universe, INFINITY..... I get scared and look at the 70s chair spiraling, swimming, zigzagging. I say "Fuck!!".....look at Rick....."I fn told you man" and starts grabbing for the DMT and rig. Realization I've lived countless lives before this that ended up here.....Ill live countless more, but still end up here. I keep hitting the bong, thinking this time Ill GET IT......this time Ill GET OUT.......just one more time....."Fuck!!"......."I fn told you man"....... I look over at Rick and his eyes are as big as dinner plates, his skin is crawling around on his face. He looks scared and freaked out. I see ten Ricks above, and ten Ricks below that start fading up and down into one like a frequency coming in tune. I start hearing a voice that ISNT mine say "This is all their is....This is all there is....." and I start saying it out loud, "This is all there is...." I stand up and yell "Throw that shit away!!, and that FUCKING chair too!!" It loops I've lived countless lives before this that ended up here.....Ill live countless more, but still end up here. I keep hitting the bong, thinking this time Ill GET IT......this time Ill GET OUT.......just one more time....."Fuck!!"......."I fn told you man"....... I look over at Rick and his eyes are as big as dinner plates, his skin is crawling around on his face. He looks scared and freaked out. I see ten Ricks above, and ten Ricks below that start fading up and down into one like a frequency coming in tune. I start hearing a voice that ISNT mine say "This is all there is....This is all there is....." and I start saying it out loud, "This is all there is...." I stand up and yell "Throw that shit away!!, and that FUCKING chair too!!" It loops I stand up and yell "Throw that shit away!!, and that FUCKING chair too!!" It loops....it loops.....it loops.....it loops......I finally start thinking about my wife and Godson at home, and I ask Rick "My fn truck is outside right?! Its outside?!" He reassures me yes its outside, its there. I tell him I think i almost had a psychotic break. He says "Come get some fresh air." Once we get outside all of my previous LSD and mushroom experiences are flashing before my eyes. Reality is folding in on itself over and over. It feels like things Rick talked to me about months before had led me to this moment a million times before and a million times again. I keep telling him "OMG, but you said that to me weeks and MONTHS ago OMG!!" It felt like i had been in this exact situation an INFINITE amount of times and had forgotten for some reason. I keep telling Rick "But Ive never fn done this before......Ive never BEEN HERE before right? RIGHT?!" I finally come down and realise how freaked out I made Rick feel. I looked back on the voice that said "This is all there is" and started tearing up thinking about my wife being a devout Baptist Christian waiting on heaven. "This is all there is". I felt my fear of death wash away. I feel that I will walk the earth again, or whatever space humankind inhabits, not as myself, but as something that has been made better by my efforts. Im sorry this was so long, but it easily could have been twice as long. This was my first and only experience with DMT so far. I know I was scared, and that i fought the experience, but i came away with very valuable knowledge that I plan on building upon. Thank you for reading my report. EDIT: Changed the pic to that FUCKING chair :-)!!