Indescribable bliss

... I take the third rip off the pen and lay on my back on the couch and close my eyes. Normally I sit upright. I had youtube live space travelling music playing ominously in the background. Eucalyptus in the diffusers. I was in heaven. I cant remember even 1 visual after closing my eyes. I remember a light. It was white. About halfway through this experience I started crying. Pure joy. When I came back I felt like I was at the bottom of a lake gently floating up laying on my back slowly, until I could see my livingroom. At this point I realize I am still crying. No clue why. But whatever it was... It was so great!