My 1st and 2nd trip on DMT

Before the 1st trip, I smoked my mapacho thru a pipe and listened to the songs I listened to back when I did my ayahuasca ceremony. I focused on my breathing and intentions. I even told the DMT: "Be easy on me, if you can, but if not, I am here to receive." I sat down in my bedroom with my girlfriend and took more deep breaths before I took the first hit from the vaporizer at 15mg. I heard a high pitch sound that was loud, but not ear deafening loud. It overtook the music I had in my headphones (which was set on low) my pajama bottoms and blankets were vivid and sharp in color, and then I felt like I was light in my body, but heavy on the way to lay down. I saw a geometrical-like honeycomb in the darkness with a super red orb that floated off to my left. It was very subtle. Not the BAM IN YOUR FACE type imagery. I had laughed a few times. The laughter didn't come from anything I was seeing, but it felt like it was coming from the inside out. Before the 2nd trip on 25mg a few hours later, I did the mapacho pipe a 2nd time and sat down in the bedroom for a while before taking the hit. I forgot to set my intentions this time before the inhale. The high pitch noise came again. I said to myself "Here we go again on a higher dose." I then dropped back with my heavy body. I came across a kaleidoscope of geometric shapes again and then a figure of head and shoulders slowly came close to me. It consist of a squares of orangey yellow and red outlines. The figure turned into a blanket of the squares with the colored outlines. The blanket covered my face. The next thing I know everything was pitch black. Even with my eyes closed, I never though with even the slightest of light, I would see that type of darkness behind my eyes. Then my awareness felt like I wasn't in my room, but another room that I was unfamiliar with. I remembered grabbing my girlfriend's hand saying "I dont know where I am right now." I wasn't scared, but I guess my ego was unfamiliar and I didn’t completely let the overwhelming awareness shift take me, I dont know. I was looking outside of this dark room, but felt I was inside at the same time. This blanket of colored squares was floating around placing itself between me and the room I was facing. I could look through the blanket to the room and I saw there was another room in the middle of that room then it slowly dissolved away and I came back puzzled, but still curious to go back one day and push forward once again on a higher dose.Things I've learned...the mapacho pipe helped calm me so I will keep that going. I need to make sure I keep my intentions each time before my trip and don't let my fucking ego come in to complain when something is not familiar!