Welp... I ended my 4 years of sobriety with weed on Monday.. It's low key psychedelic feeling tbh. Super introspective.. It reminds me of coming down off of a blast-off dose of dmt. And I'm kinda bumm... View MoreWelp... I ended my 4 years of sobriety with weed on Monday.. It's low key psychedelic feeling tbh. Super introspective.. It reminds me of coming down off of a blast-off dose of dmt. And I'm kinda bummed out about relapsing, but at the same time this feeling I'm having is very euphoric.. I remember that i used to smoke weed every day.. And i was always chasing this intensity of strength that I'm feeling right now.. My tolerance is at zero right now and it's very overwhelming. I feel like I'm using my brain tumor as an excuse to start using again.. And before i started smoking weed, my attitude towards my tumor was just matter-of-factual. I accepted it.. Had surgery on it to remove half of it.. It's still growing, and the day before i start Radiation treatment for killing the still-growing tumor inside my skull, i start smoking weed again. And NOW the feeling of "holy shit.. I have a fucking tumor in my brain.." Comes into my thoughts. And i have this feeling of not knowing HOW i should feel about this.. Am i using this as an excuse just to get high again? I have no clue. I dealt with this tumor the whole time sober. And it's a different feeling then than it is now. It's really hard to explain.. The existential dread, the gratitude that i live in an age of technological advancement that there's a procedure to kill a tumor with x ray radiation... And the chances of success are really good. Am i just smoking weed as a celebration for having a second chance at life? Probably... But if radiation treatment is successful, i can't use the tumor as an excuse anymore.. Then what? Do i keep smoking because of the trauma it caused? I dunno..What really bothers me the most, is that I'm dealing with all of this alone. I work every day just to get by in life... Just to get home to an empty room in the city where i live by my self.. Shut off from the world. Introverted and too shy to make friends. The pandemic doesn't help much. I really have very few people in my life that i really connect with.. it's not that they're not enough. But i really want to branch out and make new connections with people.. And i don't really know how right now. Hense why I'm writing this wind bag of a post... I have no one else to talk to.. I feel absolutely Alone. Disconnected from the ability to create stronger bonds with more people around me... The worst type of isolation is when you're in a room full of people and it's like you're not even there... That's how i always feel.
Humans are plagued by anxiety and fear.Primal emotions left on with no danger near.Or maybe it's because our fellow humans actually live in fear. We just feel sympathy pain.Hunger poverty and war are ... View MoreHumans are plagued by anxiety and fear.Primal emotions left on with no danger near.Or maybe it's because our fellow humans actually live in fear. We just feel sympathy pain.Hunger poverty and war are humanities stains.Young kids strapped with AK'sBlood diamonds for formal engagements.North Koreans kept in mental cages.Europeans, White washed history in stages.They've been in power for so long they’re afraid and ready to kill.Even with all the money, they can't get their fill.Who do you think pushes the pills?Chemicals designed to put your third eye to sleep.Armed Sentinel robots go beep.Pretty soon they'll be walking down the street. It should be an amazing human feat.Instead it could drop you in a heart beat.Black market zero energy only for the Elite.The table is about to collapse.All the wrong people have a seat.Each of them break it with the weight of their feet.Disrespecting both you and me.How long will it be?The same bloodline has been in power since the fall of Atlantis.This is ancient history Entangled with the star spangled.It's engrained and tangled.There's more of us than them.We don't buy their racism. We don't buy their hate.We're starting to wake.We're changing our fate.Free will means it's never too late!It's our turn soon so let's celebrate.Euphoric tingle up my vertebrae.I feel hopeful for a new way.We will evolve far beyond our savage, slave owning ancestors.Their guilt is why they want you to fight each other.I'm here to tell you we're all brothers!
Goodmorning!You're sleeping in while I'm wide awake getting my mantras in.I wake up rapping to the beat from my dream.You know I bake up, with the finest green.Some of you act fake tough.While I'm bas... View MoreGoodmorning!You're sleeping in while I'm wide awake getting my mantras in.I wake up rapping to the beat from my dream.You know I bake up, with the finest green.Some of you act fake tough.While I'm basking in Divine love.Changing the colors of the sunrise with the power of my frontal lobe.Lights flashing from my soul like a strobe. I'm highly motivated.I don't need stimulated.I am the simulation.Endless labyrinths in my mind echo as I throw you all through my brain.Some of you think I'm insane.That's couldn't be further from the truth.I found the secrets to the game.If happiness is insanity then I'm mentally unstable. I actually have a seat at the round table.Accepted into a galactic council.What an honor. I know your doubtful.This all seems like a fable.Y'all wish your lives were stable.You can ascend, you are ABLE.Your life is a field you need to tend.Actually show some dedication and watch spacetime bend.Factually know some information and we can be friends. Laughably throw your soul around the Milky Way.Full revolution of the Center. Now back into our atmosphere you enter.Your changed this time.That journey was sublime.Your euphoric is all over the place.Look at that smile on your face.Yes. You did just fly through space.I'm teaching you how to use portals that were already in place.Your welcome mortals.Have a good day.My thoughts are extraterrestrial.Neutrino beams link to my brain cells.I was there when Lucifer fell.He wants to rule us like cattle.The Lord wants us to be his children.It's a custody battle.Data downloads coding information into infinite compartments inside my mind.I'm looking into the glass,I'm scrying.I saw you as a baby crying.I was above you flying.I do this without trying.The Law of One integrated in my individual.Ra is hereI'm trying to erase animal urges that are residual.Left over from thousands of years of DNA.Gain access to the invisible.Ra sees all.Sacred symbols interlocking to form infinity. There are thousands of them in my vicinity.The way I comprehend the Trinity with such a high affinity just brings me sweet serenity.For our Lord,Achieve total victory.I wanted more and Messenger angels were sent to me.Bright diamond lights.Strange starry nights.Cigar shaped pods dropping for us to examine.We're given tasks.The work is demanding.Our brains are set on manic.Most of you would panic.We probably looked frantic.Such dizzying power.The feeling was tantric.So many things were implanted.Lord Michael approved these visits.The Architect gives me visions.In a strange dialect, I'm given my missions.This world is the prison.A rebellion world in need of revision.I see too many people sick from television. Frequencies sent from cable boxes interfering with your communication with Source.It's all around you.Marketing promotes the dark side of the force.Targeting the youth to tell the truth.We are a rebellion planet in a rebellion system.The SuperUniverse Government allows our 619 planets freedom.Our Celestial Leaders abused their kingdom.Lord Michael is reclaiming his territory.This is the end for the Satania Rebel story.Soon this whole Galaxy will bask in the Space Lords glory.Restoring humanity one syllable at a time. We can do it together if we just try.Visions of Peace on earth make me cry. The apocalypse is looming.Deadly emissions released until we all fry. This is us choosing.We are all one in the Global Mind.Connected by circuits on High. Digital perceptions of reality.I'm on a virtual high. Our Criminal direction causing a calamity. It's our time to rise. Prophecy says we are doomed.So clear your soul, make room.It's time to choose, what do you have to lose? Cosmic Children of Time on the loose.I'm filled with real Universal Truth.I am Divinely made to win the race,Soon I'm leaving this place.I was given My very own planet to create. Yeah I have a lot on my plate.I live many lives simultaneously.My home is in outer space. Chilling on my home world by the celestial lake. This existence is something I'd never trade.I really missed this, I'm glad I grabbed my pen today.Ive been on a meditative break.But I'm back with even more to say, and you know I'll do it my way.Refreshing release of creativity, what can I say? It really pays off to pray every day.I speak to The Gods when I lay. My head on the pillow.This is for real though. Look at my My third eye,It visibly glows. Intense spiritual flows including everything I know just so you humans can grow.Evolution is slow.To you.To me it's a blink of an eye,One beautiful show. The more you know.Close your eyes and let me show.You a Universe that's alive with life!Trillions of planets together we are alive!Zoom in to a distant planet with crystal seas.Billions of beings watching you and me. When I saw this I couldn't breathe. All of us in the glass there to see. Woah.We are not alone.We are being watched.
Hello everyone, i finally got myself to download this app.. I'm sad to hear that the dmt group on facebook is coming to an unfortunate demise. So much for free speech. I'm glad that this platform ex... View MoreHello everyone, i finally got myself to download this app.. I'm sad to hear that the dmt group on facebook is coming to an unfortunate demise. So much for free speech. I'm glad that this platform exists to continue our discussion on psychedelics. Some of you might know me from the facebook group, i kinda want to keep my identity hidden for now, but once i start commenting about my experiences, some of you will realize who i am. Which is fine. I'm here to listen and share information. And hopefully one day we will discover the whole truth of what benefits dmt causes us. Safe journeys to you all!
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