GrimWerx

It was 2/8/20. About a year and a month apart from my previous 5g shroom trip. You can read about that experience in my previous trip report. Although my previous dose made for a more powerful trip, there's a few things I've noticed happen each time I consume the mushroom. Let's just say that they call them trips for a reason! A literal journey, almost as if there are chapters that you go through during your few hour experience, at least that's how it's been for me each time. (note every single time I've done them, it has been in a social environment - never alone) I'd love for my next trip to either be alone or in nature somewhere, however each trip has been with my brothers and friends. It seems to go like this... Within 30 minutes to an hour you start to feel it kicking in. You gaze around the room and at each other and give each other that look. You know that one look, the "are you feeling it cause I think I might be" look accompanied with a grin. Then it really starts kicking in and you know for certain you are feeling it. Every start to my trip involves a moment of sheer happiness, no matter the reason. Sometimes not even having a reason to be happy and just bursting into laughter. It feels amazing. My wife caressing my chest and letting me lay on her lap as she trip sat and took care of me.. It felt amazing. To really feel the love and be there in that moment, feeling like I could just explode from the pure joy I was experiencing. When it comes to emotion though, you get into a broad range of them as you venture further in the trip. To me it is almost as if the shroom begins speaking to me through thought or feeling more towards the peak. I get this strong feeling like it saying "okay, we've showed you a good time, now let's learn" or it feels like it gets just a little more serious and less goofy. I began to cry as we listened to music and I sat there thinking of all the family and friends I was so grateful for. I had strong feelings of wanting to be better than I've been and thinking of things that have clearly hindered progress I could be making in different aspects of my life. Pretty interesting experience. Thankful for them all. Thankful for the mushroom. A few new things to note that I experienced during this trip: Mixing cannabis with my trip wasn't the best as I would say it might have induced a little paranoia. With the social setting and being overly sensitive to others emotions mixed with the weed, it made it very difficult to read others at times. Knowing they were on a trip as well and saying certain things.. I would find myself overthinking just about every little thing I would say in retrospective. I would get afraid that something I said might have planted a seed for them and cause them a difficult trip or something or that they took something the wrong way and hurt their feelings.. Sometimes I would try to put what I was feeling into words and then just not be able to fully put together a sentence. Started feeling dumb and worried that I was making myself look like a fool. I'm pretty sure it was just paranoia caused by the weed and so from here on out I'll likely not mix the two. Still a fantastic experience and was my first little difficult lesson that had to be learned. Another interesting new thing that happened was that I literally saw the same thing I saw in my low dose DMT experiences. The textures on just about everything would appear to be a collage of laughing faces. I'm talking just about everything I would look at, my brain would in some way force itself to find faces in patterns and things I wouldn't normally see. I've never experienced this before DMT. Wonder if I just never noticed it, or if its because of doing those low dose DMT experiences. The inner wetness feeling I get and painting like aesthetic with the visuals have been experienced with the mushroom as well as DMT and I find the similarities interesting. Does anyone else get the same sequence of feeling and emotion as I do? Starts with a hilariously fun and joyful time and then calms down to a more serene, loving and gratifying feeling? I look forward to the next time with the mushroom. Thanks for reading!

This happened back in December. Took a 5g dose with two of my brothers - oldest and youngest, as well as my first cousin down in our basement. Most of my trip from what I remember was very internal. It was like I don't remember what I was seeing on those moments of peak emotions and eyes closed. We all sort of seemed to be in the same exact parts of the trip together which was fascinating. I felt as if I were given a glimpse behind the curtain of what life is or something. A few lines I remember repeating, but do not remember why, included "there are reasons we can't feel this good all the time" and "I have work to do". One of the most liberating parts included hysterically laughing at the small things we worry about in life. Like I could not get over why we stress over the smallest shit and let things ruin our day and was laughing so hard. It felt amazing. The most profound part which inspired me to share this trip report was when I watched my older brother who was 26 at the time literally turn into an old man in classic time lapse fashion. This happened around the 2-3 hour mark after consumption so I assume this was around the peak. This would happen within 2-3 seconds and then he would revert back to present age. When that happened though you could literally see his hair turning grey, growing out quickly and crows feet forming. In that moment I remember getting an overwhelming sense of how short our time is on this planet and I just wanted to give him the biggest hug then. It made me super thankful for my brothers and was a moment I will never forget. During the tail end of the trip I also looked at my old dog who appeared to have a sunken in face (similar to a corpse) as if I could see that he would be gone soon whom is thankfully still alive as well. During the part of seeing my dog appear to be dead provided me with a very powerful sense regarding the acceptance of death and the cycle of life and that is all I could keep my mind on. Stuff is no joke and changed my perspective of life, permanently for the better. ♥️ This was my 2nd ever trip - first one was around 2.5g. Wow, still think about this night all the time and it was nearly 11 months ago.  Thanks for reading!