I have been in a depressive funk since my last trip. Actually, it has been since the last three trips that I have been in a funky mess. So, four trips ago I had the ecstatic realization that I am in a game, and I won, and in that trip I met my avatar. It was exciting to learn, but I came out not knowing what to do with this information. Then, after going back I felt as though I was offered a choice to return to the game or stay in the realm. I chose to stay in the game and ever since then all m...
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Photo credit: Viktor Koen “The AOI”
About two weeks ago I discovered my Avatar face to face, and I was absolutely blown away. Terrance McKenna had it right about “Death by Astonishment”. All prior trips were in my summation an adjustment stage to normalize the unknow within my psyche, or in other words prepping me to not explode.
I have done three extraction rounds of MHRB 100g thus far, and apart from a couple doses I have consumed most of the extract on my own. I say this to paint the ...
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To boldly go. To discover. I am beside myself with what to do next, except to keep going.
I witnessed my avatar on Saturday, and on Sunday I was so excited about discovering proof beyond doubt that we are more than just this. More than religion. More than our dogmas.
Today it settled in, and I still don't know what to do, so like any obsessed explorer I doubled down and went deeper.
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My mind is blown. There’s no other way to describe the event that I just experienced other than to say holy fucking shit! Prior to this trip I had a breakthrough where I experienced the unbelievable realization that this life is a game. My mind was blown then, but nothing could prepare me for this trip’s utter astonishment it left on me.
I thought I was dead.
I have been experimenting with open eyed trips in front of my closet mirror for about a month now. They were cool, lots of digitizing ...
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This trip I call The Lunch Trip. The other day I came home from work for a quick bite and I decided to clean my rig and check on the progress of my reclaimed spice (see my Recycle Reuse… post). The crystallization seemed to finally plateau and so I did a quick dry session with a small fan (Note: these reclaimed spices don’t stick to the glass like early pulls so be careful with the fan.) I had the time and the means so I indulged. This Lunch Trip would be my first redemption of my newly acc...
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Don’t throw the baby out with the bath water! I’ve been experimenting with ways to limit the waste associated with smoking DMT, and so I now share with you my results.
I’m using a version of the Gordo Tek mason jar rig and so far it has been a very good system, but with all that surface area much of the vapor does condense on to it. My first inclination of this was seeing the glass become cloudy and crystal shapes forming within the cloud. When I preheat the glass I could see vapors rolling o...
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I took five hits.
I’m nearly all out of my stash now, and I cannot with certainty say I’ve had a breakthrough as others have described it, but perhaps this is all I’m meant to experience.
My first trip was as others have described, fractalization of my surroundings, octagonal mesh around everything, comic book self image, and then the tunnels of warped geometric lights when closing my eyes, but no entities, no message.
As the days passed on, I would try again, upping the dose, holding it lon...
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